Sleepless night

"Hello world.
There's someone I've been missing .
I think that they could be.
The better half of me..."

[Come Home, One Republic]

This song has been playing in my mind for quite sometime now. Have heard it long time before but the version featuring Sara Bareilles is much more comforting to the ears.

Oh yes, it is easy to call someone to come home. But it is not that easy to have them right infront of your eyes when you really want them.

Saying goodbye has never been easy for me.

During that moment, when you intend to say good bye but deep inside you don't have the guts to say it out loud, that is when you are fighting with reality. My war against reality has never been glorious. At that very moment, silence has always been my best friend. You know, when you feel sad, and you feel like something is stuck in your throat as you are trying hard not to shed a tears, but at the same time you tried really hard to throw a happy face. But in the end, all you can give was a crooked smile. Thats what I always ended up instead of saying goodbye. Huduh gila. But thats better than blurting out unnecessary things *sigh*.

Now, I'm waiting for that moment when I can reclaim my pride.

The moment when reality is on my side.


when he come home, for good. :)


Starting from today, officially, I'll see the glass as half full. Okay, he has left me, again. But I'm one step closer to the finish line.