redefining 'querida

Catapulted.

2011-02-06T15:40:00.003+08:00

The best thing about living in different timezones is;
I'm in his future
and he is from my past.

But we are already/still an item.

Seven

2011-02-03T22:49:00.010+08:00

January

2011-01-27T00:01:00.006+08:00

A lot of happy things happened this week. And the week haven't ended yet. Lets hope the good luck continues until the end of the week, Insyaallah.

1. I got my first official car on Monday. Alhamdulillah.

New car: RM **,000
Insurance: RM *,000
That smile : Priceless.

2. Today is our 7 years anniversary. Yup, bukan typo tu. Betul la 7. Seven. Tujuh.
Moga dipanjangkan jodoh. InsyaAllah. Aminnnnnnn.

The sweetest wall post ever! T.T

3. I'll be driving to LCCT Sepang to pick Hafidz up on Saturday! 2 days from now! :))))

4. Weekend ni pergi bercuti kat Bagan Lalang, family day office Mama. Weekend off! Yeayyy!

5. Esok oncall! Yeayy.

Ok. Number 5 is insignificant. Tolonglah doakan tomorrow will be a good call for us, fellow Obstetric oncall-ers. Insyaallah.

P/s:

Dear Apis,

Thank you for the wonderful 7 years. Please don't make me wait lama lagi! :P
Hehee. Distance makes the heart grow fonder kan? Will be waiting for the day when you will come back for good. Dan kita bersatu menjadi doktor hebat kuasa dua! (Ok, merepek haha!)

I ❤ You!

If only I can dance.

2011-01-20T20:44:00.002+08:00

Can you feel the emotion between those to dancers? Sweet isn't it. They admit that they are best friends, but from the look of their dance routine, I think it's more than that. <3

My Pummelvision

2010-12-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

My Pummelvision from Liyana Zainal on Vimeo.

Bruno Mars ❤

2010-12-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

I was literally smiling, all the way, when I'm watching this.

And couldn't resist to feel sad bila tengok ni pulak :.(

Oh lelaki, korang nak kutuk Bruno Mars ni tak lelaki ke ape ke sukati korang lah.

But kalau semua lelaki macam ni, mesti perempuan tak lari lah. Confirm.

Hehe.

:p

What's the story, morning glory?

2010-11-18T23:09:00.004+08:00

Work. Sleep. Pray

My life revolves around these three things nowadays. I would rather sleep than go out or even eat. Sigh.

So far, life as a kuli-doktor is okay-lah. The workload is huge tough. But I must say, for now, working is kind of fun ;P. Haven't got my first pay tough, I bet it will be fun-ner once the moolah flows in! Heehee.

My first day as a House Officer.

2010-10-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 600am. Did my early morning rituals.

From this day forward, I'm determined that I want to wake up every morning, feeling motivated and passionate to go to work. I know it will be hard since I'll wake up to the same old bed, lavender colored walls, white fluorescent wall lamp etcetra. But that won't stop me from progressing.

I left our home with my right foot first. In my heart, I quietly recited my 'dua. I hoped my day runs smoothly. For the first time in my life (sigh), I'm totally independent.

First stop, JKNS, Shah Alam.

I drove our trusted (but not so sturdy) Satria. We named the car Mike. There's a story behind that name, I'll probably write about it later (if I have the time). To cut the story short, after I finished my errands in JKNS, I continued my journey to Kajang Hospital, which will be my second home for the next two years.

Mike is actually a second hand car, which my parents bought for my sister 5 years ago in order for her to commute from Shah Alam to our house. It was when I was in 3rd year of Med School when Mike had been passed down to me (not entirely), since my sister started using another car. Mike can't stand long journeys or it will get angry and overheat. Another thing with Mike is you can't stop abruptly when you are driving it, or else it will be shocked, seize and lost it's consciousness.

I was on my way to Kajang when Mike started to give me some weird vibes (I can sense when there's something wrong with Mike. Yes, we are that attached). When we were about 500 meters away from the Hicom KESAS exit, Mike seized and lost it's consciousness. Usually I manage to start Mike back after 3 trials but it did not work this time. Surprisingly, I did not panic. I called my sister. Luckily, she was on her way to Shah Alam for her class, but she was running late. Late=Stress=High Pitch Voice when I was talking to her on the phone. It's not her fault. If I'm in her situation, I'll probably reacted the same way as she did. But somehow, that triggered me.

I called my brother for help since he's the expert when it comes to cars, and that's when I burst into tears. Heh. I was surprised that he can understand what I was saying on the phone.

Alhamdulillah, about 15 minutes later, my sister came into the rescue, and then there was this guy who works in a workshop nearby who offered help. I drove my sister's car to Kajang and she waited for her friend to pick her up there. My brother took care of the rest.

Usually when things like these happens, the first person that I will call is my mother, and she will usually call my father for help. Hmmmm. But whatever it is, I'm grateful that I have my sister and brothers around, and I can totally depend on them 24/7. Alhamdulillah.

The rest of the day was filled with endless forms filling, photocopying and briefings. There were 13 new House Officers who came to report their duty other than myself. All of them were nice and helpful. :)

Oh, and my first rotation is....Obstetrics and Gynecology! :)

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ALLAH is GREAT. Allah menguji umatnya supaya senantiasa ingat kepada-Nya.

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That's my story about my first day as a House Officer.

Let's hope for more interesting (and happy) stories to come! :)

October.

2010-10-17T11:50:00.001+08:00

10.10.10 - Graduation

11.10.10 - Induction

17.10.10 - Mama flew to Saudi Arabia to perform her Hajj.

18.10.10 - [tomorrow]I'm officially a House Officer in Hospital Kajang. Wootwoot!

As of from today, I will set my 'niat' straight.
I will work for ALLAH. I will work to serve those in need. I will do no harm. Insyaallah, I will try my best to be a competent, trusted, reliable and most importantly, a safe doctor.

Ya ALLAH, please grant me my wishes. Aminnnnnn.

Graduation 10.10.10

2010-10-10T22:26:00.003+08:00

A perfect memory carved on a historical triple-ten day.

Graduation from Liyana Zainal on Vimeo.

Starved for Attention

2010-10-09T13:00:00.005+08:00

(scroll ke bawah untuk points dalam Bahasa Melayu)

Do you know that almost 195 million children under 5 years of age are affected by malnutrition, with 90 percent living in sub-Saharan Africa and South Asia?

Malnutrition contributes significantly to the premature death of children because the immune systems of malnourished children are less resistant to common diseases. Or in other words, malnourished children are more prone to fall sick over treatable diseases such as Pneumonia (radang paru-paru) or a simple chicken pox.

In fact, malnutrition contributes to at least 1/3rd of the 8 million annual deaths of children under five or five.

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?

When we continuously brag about what we ate (and gonna eat) in our Facebook or Twitter there are people living in other part of the world who find it difficult to feed their children, let alone themselves. However, we are grateful that our government provides appropriate nutritional help for children with needs like these.

For the unfortunate countries, they rely on the help from larger countries, eg. the US. US is the world’s largest food aid donor. It produces and ships hundreds of thousands of tons of fortified cereals made of corn and soy blend (CSB), which may relieve a young child’s hunger but do not provide proper nourishment. CSB does not meet standards for infant cereals intended for healthy children, let alone those who are malnourished and underweight.

So, the US sends food overseas to children that it does not use in its own nutrition programs.

THIS DOUBLE STANDARD NEEDS TO END!

In order to stop these from happening, Doctors Without Borders/Médecins Sans Frontières (MSF) and VII Photo present “Starved for Attention,” a multimedia campaign exposing the neglected and largely invisible crisis of childhood malnutrition.

“Starved for Attention” aims to rewrite the story of malnutrition through a series of multimedia documentaries that seamlessly blend photography and video from some of the most accomplished and award-winning photojournalists working today.

By signing the “Starved for Attention” online petition, you can be part of the campaign to rewrite the story of malnutrition and demand that the 195 million malnourished children get the attention they need and deserve to escape the deadly cycle of malnutrition.

It makes me sad knowing that that there are millions of children out there who suffers from malnutrition, when ironically, obesity is one of the main problem here in our country.

The most that we can do now is to sign the petition to support Doctors Without Borders' efforts to demand that governments supplying humanitarian food aid ensure that the food meets nutritional standards for infants and young children.

I rewrote the story of malnutrition. How about YOU?

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[B.M. translation]

195 juta kanak-kanak di seluruh dunia, terutamanya di negara dunia ke-3, mengalami masalah malnutrisi.
Amerika merupakan salah satu negara terbesar yang tampil ke hadapan untuk menolong menghantar bekalan makanan kepada negara yang memerlukan.
AKAN TETAPI, Amerika didapati menghantar bekalan makanan berbentuk bijirin soya dan jagung, yang semestinya TIDAK DAPAT MEMBANTU TUMBESARAN KANAK-KANAK.
Didapati juga, Amerika TIDAK menggunakan makanan berbentuk bijirin soya dan jagung untuk diberi kepada rakyat mereka yang memerlukan.
Perbuatan PILIH KASIH (double standard) ini PERLU DIHENTIKAN!
Oleh yang demikian, persatuan DOKTOR TANPA SEMPADAN ingin mengumpul petisyen supaya bantuan bekalan makanan kepada negara dunia ke-3 ini menepati nutrisi tumbesaran kanak-kanak.
Sila tekan di sini untuk membantu mereka!

(pelik sungguh buat translation ke BM ni :p)

Tips from a Blackberry user.

2010-10-07T19:00:00.000+08:00

Things I ~~like~~ love ❤ about my Blackberry

1. Finally, I can use only one ~~handphone~~ smartphone. It was quite troublesome to have to carry two phones everywhere you go. My boyfriend studies in Indonesia, so in order to cut cost, we both had two phones with Maxis and XL (Indonesian) line. Now that both of us owns a BB, we just BlackBerryMessenger (BBM) each other. Pantas, senang dah mudah (Cewahhh!).

2. I admit, I'm a Facebook and Twitter(just recently) addict. With BB, I can check and upload pictures to Facebook and blab in Twitter literally everywhere! (Read: everywhere means; 1. places with no wireless network; 2. places with phone coverage)

2. You've probably heard people saying that having a BB is only worthit when your friends/family are also using it. It's true in the sense that you can only Blackberry Messenger with another BB user. The truth is, BBM is the same like any other messenger eg. YM, G-talk, MSN Messenger. The only difference is in BBM, your friends will be among BB users only. You just have to download other messenger application from BB App World and you can start instant messaging your non-BB friends through BB 24/7.

3. E-mailing is a lot easier with BB! The RIM technology allows you to send and receive emails in a flash. This is because your emails & attachments are compressed no larger than 2 KB.

4. It's qwerty keyboard and sleek design. A perfect fit for those with big hands, like me! ;)

Things I dislike about Blackberry

1. You have to subscribe the Blackberry Internet Service (BIS) for you to enjoy those things I mentioned earlier. Your BB can work without BIS, but a BB without BIS = Bukan Blackberry lah! Haha. If you are using prepaid, you can activate your BIS per day/week/month, and the rate depends on your provider. But in my opinion (and experience), if you are planning to use BIS everyday, it is advisable for you to change your plan to postpaid and subscribe the monthly BIS package. I've been using Maxis's BIS service for nearly 5 months now. So far, so good :)

2. RIM, please make a Hipstamatic for Blackberry!! Oh, it will be nice if I can swap lenses, film, and flash settings all with the swipe of a finger on my BB. Tak payah nak beli Lomo dah kalau ada Hipsta for BB!

3. If you like to play games and download ridiculous applications for your phone, BB is not for you. Go for iPhone or Android phone instead. I'm saying this because BB has limited applications for you to download, and most of them aren't free.

4. You cannot make video calls using any Blackberry phones or iPhone 3Gs. Video calls are only available with iPhone 4 (over Wi-Fi only), or the new (not yet released) Blackberry Playbook. Oh saya mahuuuuu itu!

Uuuuuuu. Lebih kecil dari iPad yang gedabak tu.
Yang ini, saya mahu.

5. iPhone 4 is OVERRATED. Siapa setuju sila angkat tangan. Heh.

I hope these help. ^.^

Graduation : Wishlist!

2010-10-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

{baby's breath}

{pastel colored roses}

{calla lilies}

{daisy gerbera}

This post is in response to my status in Facebook:

Well, I don't want to leave you guys wondering how those flowers look like. I'm pretty sure those names does not ring any bell up there since we live in a tropical country; unless you're living in Cameron Highland or majoring in flower and plantation (ade ke course tu?), you are excepted.

So, *hint* my graduation is next Sunday (101010), and I will be a very happy graduand if I can get my hands on those lovely bouquet *hint*.

Heeeee *smirk*.

Excited!

2010-10-04T13:29:00.006+08:00

I'm uber excited!

Just now, I was startled by a loud honk which came from my front gate. Ingatkan apek surat khabar lama, rupanya van Pos Laju. I'm expecting a Pos Laju delivery since last week actually. A dear friend from Ipoh asked me a favor to collect her graduation robe, so I'm expecting a letter from her containing her academic regalia forms etc.

The postman was super-cute! He was like "Ni surat nak pergi Khidmat Negara ke?". I responded "Eh, taklah..." (Dalam hati : "Wah! Pakcik ni ingat aku 17 tahun ke. Heeee"). Tapi kesian Pakcik Postman sebab kena berjemur tengah panas. Thank you Pakcik Posman! Tanpa awak, takdelah surat cinta untuk saya!

I thanked the super-cute postman, grabbed the letter and went straight into the house. I was confident that the letter was from my friend, so I didn't bother to look at it thoroughly. I wasn't expecting any letter from KKM, not at this time of the month, due to the response I got from them late last week. I called KKM asking about the induction course last Friday and they said they couldn't confirm the date, and they ask me to just wait for the letter.

Surprisingly, it's THE letter! It's just been freakin' 3 days after the phone call and it's here! Whoooohooo! Bravo Gomen! Hahaha. One worddd: EFFICIENT!

Okay, I haven't mentioned it here, my Graduation will be on the 10th of October. According to the letter, induction falls on the 11th of October, which is one day after Graduation! Alhamdulillah. I'm truly blessed. Thank you ALLAH for granting my wish :) When I was doing my Tawaf Umrah, I prayed and prayed that I'll start work not to early and not to late, hopefully when I'm ready mentally, physically and emotionally. I have a feeling that this is the perfect date to start my housemanship, Insyaallah.

Now I have to start training myself to wake up early in the morning, sort out my notes, freshen up my knowledge, buy new clothes for work and pray hard I'll be posted to the nearest hospital from home. :)

The 800 miles love story.

2010-10-01T11:28:00.001+08:00

The story of two lovers who lives 800 miles apart ❤.

The sweet-goodbye post.

2010-09-28T20:32:00.008+08:00

I woke up this morning, feeling horrible. Not because I was having one of those awful bad hair days (thank GOD i'm wearing hijab) or my boyfriend slept in the middle of IM-ing me last night (okay, the latter was true but I did that to him almost every day, so I have no right to be mad. Heh). Ayah went back to Jeddah yesterday. He will not make it for my graduation but I'm okay with that because we went for my graduation photo-shoot last week, so metaphorically, I've graduated. Heehee. I hope he will be back for raya Qurban though, or else the four of us will be celebrating raya alone as Mama will be doing her Hajj this year. Hmmm. Things will be quite difficult without him, but we'll be fine, Insyaallah.

Here's some 'melodramatic' pictures me and my sister took when we were in KLIA.

Bully victim T.T

Ayah kacakkk

Uhuk :.(

L-R: Dato' Siti, Frankenstein, Mama cantikk

Arghh. I hate saying goodbyes, especially in the airport. Believe me, I should be an expert in saying goodbyes by now. Tapi tak tahulah kenapa tak expert2 sampai sekarang. :(

So, in order to put my mind at ease, I baked.

Tak main la bake senang-senang. Bake recipe susah-susah la, baru thrill. :P Actually, tak susah pun. Nama resipi yang macam nak kena pergi France beli ingredients, tapi senang je. ;)

Vanilla & Chocolate Coconut Macaroons. Heeeee.

I'll probably post the recipe later, depending on your request. If you want the recipe please don't hesitate to leave a comment. But this macaroons are strictly for coconut lovers. For those who are hypersensitive or doesn't like the coconuty-taste and texture, you should try other macaroons recipe, prolly the almond based macaroons.

Till then, XOXO.

p/s: I miss you Ayah. Uhukkk :(

September Wishlist

2010-09-28T18:01:00.010+08:00

70's Day Dress from Warehouse

Smock Bib Blouse from Warehouse

Open Front Jumpsuit Maxi Dress from Maysaa

Embellished Maxi Dress from Warehouse

Satin Wrap Band Snood from Maysaa

Nak semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Now I'm super excited to start my housemanship. Woot woot!

Cintaku tertinggal di BDO.

2010-09-26T20:33:00.002+08:00

Hijabi Lovee

2010-09-25T00:55:00.004+08:00

I was browsing through youtube the other day, searching for hijab tutorials (bosan kot pakai style sama je T.T) and 'accidentally' came across these videos. That girl in the video is Hana Tajima, a Japanese-English designer, who is also a Muslim! Oh, I just love her style! Please, check her blog out at stylecovered.com. She even has her own clothing range, specially designed for hijabi women {maysaa.com}.

<3<3<3

Just for you!

2010-08-25T23:51:00.004+08:00

Happy Wisuda (Graduation) Apis!

Even though you acted like it's not a big deal, but I know you really wanted to go and receive your scroll, but it's okay, there will always be next time! (tak aci korang grad dua kali...:P)

(Ok tau buruk sila gelak sekarang...)

I'm not that expert in superimposing, but at least I tried! Heeee. :P

I'm proud of you, really.

<3<3<3

Kadang²

2010-08-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

Kadang², we tend to make silly mistakes.
Kadang², we hear, but we don't listen.
Kadang², when you want something so bad, you didn't realize the consequences that might arise.
Kadang², crying is the best medicine to mend a broken heart.

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Sometimes, gerak hati tu tak semestinya benar.
Sometimes, diam adalah pintar.
Sometimes, fantasi disalah-anggap sebagai realiti.
Sometimes, pendapat tak semestinya mempengaruhi keputusan.

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The next phase : Denial.

"What if..." haunts.

...what if things turned out differently?

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Acceptance.
Is.
Hard.

But I believe everything happens for a reason.

Journey Part I

2010-07-22T01:11:00.007+08:00

Journey to the Holy Land - Makkah & Madinah

I've been to many places.
Seen so many faces.
But in this journey, everything was different.

At first, I was anxious, afraid and overwhelmed with disbelief.
Will I ever be accepted to enter HIS house?
Or even step to HIS holy land?
Am I worthy to be HIS guest?

But Allah is Merciful.
The door is always open for to seek HIS forgiveness.

"O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."

[Surah Az-Zumar (The Troops) 39:53]

My sister once said, once you've been here, everything else is miscellaneous.

It was truly a blessing and I wouldn't change it for the world.

Fresh from the oven

2010-07-21T00:34:00.004+08:00

I should be very busy at this time of the year. Being a houseman, dealing with sick people, angry consultants etc. But I decided to postpone my induction due to personal reason. For now, I'm glad of the choice I've made.

My family and I went to Saudi Arabia for 3 weeks and we just came back home earlier this month. It was truly a wonderful journey. We paid ayah a visit, stayed in our beautiful second home in Jeddah, and did our Umrah and Ziarah. Alhamdulillah. Everything went well. Although it was hard for me to bid farewell to Mecca, Madinah, ayah as well as our home, I had to do it, but praying that I will come back to this miraculous place again one day, Insya-Allah. I'll write as well as post pictures about our journey in my next post.

Oh, about the above pictures, I baked a few trays of chocolate chip cookies the other day and decided to snap some pictures. I got the recipe from a dear friend and it tastes as good as it looks, believe me. I've tried tons of chocolate chip cookies recipe from a few recipe books as well from the internet since I was in primary school, and this is by far one of the best recipe I've ever tried. Just leave a comment if you want the recipe, I'm more than happy to share :)

Leaving on a jetplane.

2010-06-13T01:01:00.004+08:00

InsyaAllah, tomorrow I'll be leaving on a jetplane with my family, to Jeddah. Ayahhhh here we come! Hehee. When we are there, InsyaAllah, we will perform our Umrah.

To my dear friends, if you are reading this, I'm sorry for my wrongdoings. Kalau ada hutang apa-apa, minta dihalalkan for the time being. Kalau ada, please remind be to get back to you once I reached home, which will be on early July.

To my friends who are getting engaged/married, congratulations! I'm sorry I can't attend your engagement ceremony/reception. Happy for all of you! :)

Ya Allah, minta dipermudahkan perjalanan kami. Aminnnn.

Salam.

The End of Undergraduate Era

2010-06-02T01:32:00.003+08:00

Friday, 21st May 2010.

[moment of silence]

Dean : Liyana....

[I raised my hand up high, high enough that it is impossible for him to miss me from the big crowd]

Dean : .......pass

I've been waiting for that very moment for 5 years. Tears of joy streamed down my face, and I wiped it with a sigh of relief. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. GOD is great.

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It all started when I got a phone call from my mother. She told me right before I had the chance to check the result from the UPU database myself. I got accepted to study medicine in UPM medical school, which was my first choice out of 7 other medical schools in Malaysia. Yes, UPM was my first choice. Why? I felt insecure. All I can think of was probably I have a higher chance of getting accepted to med school if I put UPM first rather than UM or UKM.

But I was wrong.

UPM has thousands of great things to offer other than being the country's leading university in tropical agriculture (ceewah macam nak promote pulak!)

My mother works as a Librarian in UPM since 1970s up till now. When I was little, I always refer UPM as the place where my mom work or where I go for my swimming classes (Yes, I took swimming classes in UPM when I was in primary school. LOL.) and Fardhu Ain classes. I never thought that I will end up in UPM as a student. To make things worst, I never knew that UPM offers a medical degree up until I was 18 years old! Hahaha!

Now, UPM, or FPSK to be exact, has been the reason for the person that I've become now. The wiser, sensible and Insyaallah, competent version of Liyana.

Yes, every person who uses PLUS KL-Seremban highway knows that UPM breeds big fat juicy cows, but what they don't know is UPM also produces hundreds of brilliant and capable doctors every single year since 2001! Okay, I know it is irrelevant to compare cows with doctors, but you have to agree with me on this, both doctors and cows are equally important for the survival of mankind. LOL.

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I'm glad that I've met a lot of wonderful people during my 5 years in UPM. To my best friends for life: Fiz, Fieza, Ju and Eti. Thank you for always be there for me for five amazing years. We've been through thick and thin. I might not be the perfect friend, but I'm grateful that all of you accepted me for who I am, and I'm truly blessed. We might go our separate ways after this, but I will always remember each and every one of you as my sisters, dunia akhirat. =)

To all my classmates, thank you for helping me throughout these 5 years. I will keep those amazing memories with you guys deep in my heart. Good luck in your future undertakings! Hope all of us will be a safe and humble doctors, InsyaAllah. Do keep in touch!

To all dedicated UPM lecturers during both theory and clinical years, thank you for your time and effort. We won't be here today without your help!

To Mama, Ayah, Kak Long, Eman and Bean, thank you for being there for me 24/7. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down and keeping my spirits up!

Not to forget my grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins...thank you for supporting me all these years. I am truly honored to be the first doctor in the family. Hope there will be more doctors to come!

Oh yes, Apis, the soulmate, twin-brotha (LOL) , boyfriend & best friend. We've been through a lot throughout these 5 years. You've been a great teacher, an awesome critique and a great listener. Thank you for keeping up with me for all these years. I'll wait for you in 2 years time!

Last but not least, to all the people who have helped me throughout these 5 years; patients, hospital staffs, UPM staffs, etc. , thank you. :)

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Dr Liyana Bt Zainal Abidin, MD(UPM).
Pergh, macam tak percaya! :p

This is only the beginning of great years to come.

After five bloody years of hardship and suffering, now the real game has just begun.

.............but before that, MARI BUANG MASA SECARA BESAR-BESARAN!

LOL.

Wishlist : Camera bags!

2010-04-13T18:13:00.007+08:00

It's that time of the year when your birthday is just approaching, the only thing that comes into your mind is receiving that pretty wrapped box, twirled with ribbons and together with it comes a neatly handwritten birthday card, reminding you that you have grown a year older. For me, April is that time of the year! So, to make things easier for ~~you guys~~ me, I've created a wishlist.

LOL. As always, I'm not expecting any present-lah. :P In reality, I will probably end up buying this stuff by myself. Hehe.

My GREATEST craving is : A brand new dslr camera bag! It has to be trendy, but most importantly, it has to look like an ordinary women handbag! I'm sick of carriying that big black dull Canon camera bag. The reason is because photography is my hobby. I'm not planning to be full-blown photog or anything near that field. Carrying that dull canon bag screams "Hey, look at me! I'm a poser!I have no idea how to use a dslr, I own one because everybody has one..". Come on lah. I despise those group of people who carries around dslr around their neck, acting like a real photog when the end result are just MySpace worthy shots. You know what I mean. LOL. Okay, back to the real topic. So, most of the time I will end up tossing my camera in my handbag. Most of my handbags are BIG and BULKY. Not that I didn't have a choice, but I prefer big handbags compared with small ones.

I've got a list of beautiful camera bags which I've came across in the internet. Here is it:

1. Epiphanie Bags

pictures courtesy of beyond-snapshots.com

I'm in LOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEE with Epiphanie's Lola (red) camera bag! Ginger (brown) is nice too. But it costs MYR 530 / USD 169. :( I will die in starvation if I get my hands on this bag. *sigh*

2. Kelly Moore Bag

If only I have the money tskkk. These lovelies costs MYR 646/ USD 199.99. I can get two Canon 50 mm f/1.8 lenses with this amount of money! Kelly Moore's bags comes in purple, fuchsia, grey, brown, black, jade, and cranberry. Obviously, I'm torn between purple and fuchsia.

3. Janine King Design s

Funky isn't it? I love the designs. Simple yet stylish! And to make it sound more interesting, it costs MYR 194/ USD 59.99 only! Hahaha. I know it's still expensive, but compared to the previous two bags, there's a higher chance for me to own this baby.

If money is not a problem for me, I'll go for:

1. Epiphanie's Lola/Ginger
2. Janine King's camerabag
3. Kelly Moore's Purple bag

Oh, and hey, if you have come across other beautiful bags, do inform me. I'm keeping my options open for now. Yes, I am serious about buying one! Hehe.

Anaquerida's closet.

2010-04-04T18:13:00.007+08:00

Mellinda Looike, Bernard Chondran, Hatta Dolman and Zang Toy, BEWARE!
Anaquerida has ventured into Malaysian fashion industry! Grrrrrrrrr. (hey, at least I'm stepping on solid grounds. I'm competing among Malaysian designers je :p)

HAHAHAHAHA! *gelak besar*. I'm not a fashion-geek/fashion-guru/fashionista, or whatever you call it. I was meddling around the net (I was bored) and I accidentally I came across this site, looklet.com.

Best gila! You can play around the models and create new looks! Click here to go to my pag e. Oh and please ignore the profile picture LOL.

Okay, lets get in anaquerida's closet shall we. [copyright controlled]

Arggggggggghhhhhhhh ( tiba-tiba tension!).
If only I have a chance to own them!
Takpe2, my birthday is coming :)

Okayh, got to go!

Earth Hour 2010: Save Earth, Go Green! (or black)

2010-03-27T18:24:00.001+08:00

If you think you have throwed mountains of rubbish or have been using CFC aerosol spray long enough in your life which contributes to the formation of unwanted holes in the ozone layer, you should become a part of Earth Hour campaign in order to pay your debts to Mother Nature.

Bukan susah pun, on ~~28th March 2009 at 2030 to 2130 hours~~ 27th March 2010 at 2030 to 2130 hours, grab a blanket as well as your picnic basket and head to your lawn. You should spend that one hour stargazing, instead of watching tv, blogging, facebook-ing, or doing any electricity-required activities.

Vote for EARTH by turning off your lights for ONE HOUR. It is world's ~~first~~ second global election day.

EARTH vs GLOBAL WARMING

Which side are you?

[composed on 15th March 2009, edited and reblogged on 27th March 2010]

Who knows, maybe I'll be the next Nobel Prize winner.

2010-03-21T17:51:00.011+08:00

I've decided which hospital I want to serve in Insyaallah a few months time, provided I pass my Professional III exam (Aminnnnnnnnnn). After endless discussions with my mother and siblings, and after exchanging a few emails with my dad, I realized that it does not matter which hospital I end up working with, it's the experience that truly matters.

"Choosing the place to do whatever ship should be the least of your problems...it's how you handle these people and most importantly how you handle youself is the key..".

Those were exactly what ayah said that made me realized that I should not think too much about where I want to be posted. Thank you ayah for your advice. I miss having you around :(

I was told on Friday that all of us have to submit our form for our housemanship application the latest on Tuesday. So, today, I've spent my evening searching for my SPM certificate as well as other important things to be compiled with the form. When I was busy searching, I came across this....

Funny tak! Hahahaha! I was laughing my heart out when I saw this! But hey, I dreamt of being a doctor since I was 10 years old kot! When I was little, I always dream of becoming a scientist. Back then, I had a weird fascination over people working in the labs, with the test tubes filled with weird looking liquids, people wearing lab coats with their electrified hairdo (imagine: Albert Einstien), I was determined that one day, I will work in the lab, create something new, and win the Noble Prize (too much for a 10 year old eh?pfffttt). Dah masuk high school baru realized that there was no chemistry between me and Chemistry (the subject). Time tu baru lah fikir nak pursue a degree in Genetics (gila ambition punya highly specialized :P). But I always put Doctor as a career of choice at the back of my mind, as I think that I will be needing a miracle to get into medical school. Pejam celik tak sangka sekarang ni dah masuk my final year of medical school. It is funny how time flies when you least expect it.

Alhamdullillah, for now, I think I've acheived more that what I've dream for. But I still have a looooooooooooooonnnnnnggggggggg journey to go. Now, all I have to do is fuel up my tank with endless information and shift to gear 5.

Ya Allah, permudahkan lah jalan untuk hamba mu ini...Aminnnnn.

Should I keep this blog or delete it?

2010-03-07T02:17:00.003+08:00

Should I keep this blog or delete it? Please respond, anonymously pun takpe. Your comments are greatly appreciated. :)

This abandoning-blog-thingy is getting teruk-er each day. Sorry for all my readers out there (macam ada je), but recently, I have a tendency to open-close-open my 'new post' section, most of the time I will leave it blank and end up closing it again. From now on, I won't be posting as 'frequently' as before. I'm telling this because I don't wanna put high hopes to my readers (cewah, belagak lagi ada org baca blog ni).

Anyway, what's up with people posting pictures of their trip to Broga Hill? Everytime I came across those pictures in my facebook news feed, I'll end up seeing the same set of pictures again and again. Macam duplicate pulak. Ok, random ranting of the day. I'm saying this because I'm soo jealous of those people who get a chance to witness Broga's breathtaking sceneries. Nak pergi :(

Yay! Tomorrow Mama will be coming back home from Jeddah. :)) From now on, Ayah's second home is in Jeddah. Ayah has started working there since last month and Mama accompanied him for the first month. I'm happy for Ayah, but..

I'll definitely miss his Maggi goreng, Mee Hailam and Sup Ekor.

He is a hard worker. Eventho he was a pensioner before he got this job, that never stop him from doing other works. He loves gardening, and he is a good carpenter. Come visit our home, I'll show you all of the cupboards, cabinets and tables that he has worked on. We even have our own hand-made waterfall in our front yard. I will definitely miss the cluttering noises when he's busy building a new furniture for the house.

I'll definitely miss having late night snacks with him. Usually, he sleeps quite late as he loves to watch the TV late at night. If I'm still up, and he happen to make a sandwich for his supper, he will make another one for me without me asking for it.

I'll definitely miss his jokes.

I'll definitely miss HIM.

He is not the type of father who is open in term of showing his love towards his children. He has his own way of showing it, and I love him for that. Ayah, do take care, and come back home as frequently as you can ok. Ikan-ikan ayah dah rindu kat ayah ni. hehe.

I have to stop here, in dire need to press the forward button now. Can't wait to see Mama tomorrow!

Nightingale

2010-01-23T16:33:00.005+08:00

You can now find me at Tumblr.

Nightingale

http://anaquerida.tumblr.com

Will be posting my artwork and reblogging my favorite pictures or quotes from Tumblr/Twitter/Flickr in that site.

I'm still using this site to write/rant/blab etc, so there's nothing to worry about.

:)

Cloud nine.

2010-01-17T21:29:00.003+08:00

Despite the blisters and falls,
I still <3 you.

3 vs 10
I WON! yay!

Zero Ten.

2010-01-01T00:40:00.005+08:00

HELLO 2010!

The clock strikes 1200am.

I was sitting on the sofa, holding a cup of hot tea, watching....

Devdas.

A good start to the new year indeed.

Pfffffffffttt

Actually, I was planning on going to a place where I can get a good view of the fireworks display. I wanted to take some pretty shots of it. But turns out that my foot does not allow me to do so. I think it got knocked by something last year (yesterday,to be exact.:P) or I hit something causing it to bruise real bad. At last, I ended up celebrating new year with Shah Rukh Khan and Aishwarya Rai. To make things more interesting, Shah Rukh Khan died at the end of the movie *sigh*.

Don't get me wrong. Not celebrating new year does not mean its the end of my life. Staying home during new year's eve has been my yearly routine for the past, oh I don't know, a decade probably? The only thing that attracts me during new years are the fireworks display, nothing more than that. We used to have a chance to see fireworks from our front yard. But now, the only thing that's left is the deafening sound of it.

Tapi takpe lah, this year tak dapat tengok bunga api, tengok kat SINI pun jadi lah.

Before I end this post, can you do me a favor? Please pray for me, as well as my friends, to do well in our studies as out BIG exam is getting nearer. This exam is our ticket to get that M.D. title at the end of our names. Aminnnnnn. Thanks :)))

Good Bye ZERO-NINE.
You were AWESOFRICKINTASTIC!

Hello ZERO-TEN.
Please, don't be so rough on me.

Happy new year peeps!

P/s.: I hate reminding myself that the exam is around the corner as I will end up with a new zit on my face grrr!

There's just got to be more to life than eating puddings and watching CSI.

2009-12-30T01:27:00.009+08:00

I-got-butterflies-in-my-stomach moments #1

Me : Give me ten reasons kenapa ana patut datang Bandung.

Hafidz: 1-10: Apis windu Ana!

♥

4 months are long enough to make me lovesick.

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To make long story short:

1. November and December have been hectic for me, both studies and extracuricular activities.

2. Sanity will be flying home soon :)

3. Our Strength will be leaving us soon :(

4. Please visit Diya-Dirah-Nana blogshop, qesuma. Mention my name, I'll give you baikpunya discount.

Nocturnal

2009-11-14T13:38:00.009+08:00

Confused
it's like dejavu
too good to be true
but it aches.

Friday I'm in love.

2009-11-13T16:04:00.007+08:00

It's friday and I'm home ♥.

It's nice to have a day off from school especially when the exam stress is finally over!

I have no offical plans or date this weekend. Eventhough I purposely asked Hafidz to be my date through YM and he said yes, I don't think that count. I refuse to discuss hypothethicals in this post :P. I'm dying to go out with my big black machine(BBM) for some phototherapy. My version of phototherapy means going out to snap some random pictures. It has nothing to do with any tanning sessions thank you. I'm living on the equator-- too much sun yet I'm not even wearing any UV-protector *sigh*.

Since I mentioned about my BBM, I want to buy new 'clothes' for him! Currently, I'm canoning Canon EF 50mm f/1.8 II. I fell in love with this lens when a friend offered me to try his's.

Shutter : 1/15
Focal Length : 50mm
Aperture: f/1.8

The above picture was taken using Canon EF 50mm f/1.8 lens II. Currenly I'm only using kit lens, Canon EF-S 18-55mm, the lowest aperture number is only f/3.5. I need a lower aperture number in order to have a picture with crisp bokeh, something like the above picture. The background appeared to be blur, which sharpens the subject even more. Luckily, it's the cheapest among original Canon lenses. Okay lepas ni tak makan seminggu heheh.

Okay, enough with the BBM story. This might be unrelated with the whole post, but I came across this interesting button game. It's hilarious, try it!

Want this? Click here!

Graduation of Two Rockstars

2009-10-30T14:50:00.011+08:00

[taking a deep breath]

...this going to be an emotional post for me.

It was 620 in the morning. I usually wake up around this time on weekdays, but I have a tendency to hit the snooze button just to have a few more minutes of nap before I get my early morning shower. But today, the excitement of seeing my sister, Nadia and brother, Aiman, getting their scrolls gives me some sort of like an adrenaline rush.

When I was watching the ceremony, something tickles me from within. I wonder, will I be in that same situation next year? Will I have a chance to wear the robe and toss that mortar, and most importantly, receive the honorable title? Insyaallah, I'll try my best. But please pray for my success eh? :) Nevertheless, seeing thousands of graduates receiving their scrolls with the look of relief on their faces just uplifts me.

There were two session that day. My brother's was in the morning, and there was about a thousand of graduates before him. And the situation was the same for my sister. It was tiring to wait, but at the end of the day, it was all worthit.

p.s. I've uploaded the video from the ceremony in YouTube. I bet you can easily locate both of them from the video. haha :P

CONGRATULATIONS to both Kak Long and Eman!

I'm so proud of both of you. =D

for more photos, go to this link:

<Graduation Photo @ Facebook>

Random moments.

2009-10-06T21:49:00.011+08:00

Photoshoot session with PADI
(pendatang asing dengan izin)

PhotoTherapy: I need this in order to keep my sanity intact.

I can't remember the time when I stopped missing you.

This is why I couldn't stop smiling today.

2009-09-08T00:53:00.006+08:00

[click the picture for larger view]

-Utusan Malaysia, 7 September 2009

Nasib baik tak beli sampai 3 4 paper utusan hari ni. :p Got really exicited when I opened the paper today (padahal memang dah tau masuk paper, sebab tu beli pon, kalau tak haramm nak beli paper hari2. haha) . Tak dapat jumpa, tengok dalam paper pun jadilah.

By the way, his area was not severly affected by the earthquake, but they felt it somehow. 7.5 richter scale man, even the Hiroshima Nagasaki blast recorded 5.0 richter scale.

Oh yes, I'm very proud of you Pak YDP :)))

Sleepless night

2009-09-05T01:37:00.005+08:00

"Hello world.
There's someone I've been missing .
I think that they could be.
The better half of me..."

[Come Home, One Republic]

This song has been playing in my mind for quite sometime now. Have heard it long time before but the version featuring Sara Bareilles is much more comforting to the ears.

Oh yes, it is easy to call someone to come home. But it is not that easy to have them right infront of your eyes when you really want them.

Saying goodbye has never been easy for me.

During that moment, when you intend to say good bye but deep inside you don't have the guts to say it out loud, that is when you are fighting with reality. My war against reality has never been glorious. At that very moment, silence has always been my best friend. You know, when you feel sad, and you feel like something is stuck in your throat as you are trying hard not to shed a tears, but at the same time you tried really hard to throw a happy face. But in the end, all you can give was a crooked smile. Thats what I always ended up instead of saying goodbye. Huduh gila. But thats better than blurting out unnecessary things *sigh*.

Now, I'm waiting for that moment when I can reclaim my pride.

The moment when reality is on my side.

when he come home, for good. :)

Starting from today, officially, I'll see the glass as half full. Okay, he has left me, again. But I'm one step closer to the finish line.

Help needed.

2009-08-29T12:28:00.002+08:00

I'm a mess.

Can somebody help me clean myself up?

Selamat Berpuasa everyone. Today is my first day of Ramadhan. :)

Rainbow

2009-08-12T20:37:00.003+08:00

Yes, you, you and you.

:)

I heart you Don Juan DeMarco.

2009-08-08T19:16:00.015+08:00

Yesterday, 17 Sya'aban 1470 Hijrah, was my birthday according to Hijrah Calendar. ~~Go and get me a present already :P.~~

Unexpectedly, yesterday I received the greatest news of the ~~week~~ year. Alhamdulillah. Honestly, I was astounded by the news. Somehow, it changed my perspective on finishing the last bits of my school life. Not entirely, for sure. Seriously, I really need things like this in order to build up my spirit, rather than being passive most of the times. *sigh*. It was, beyond comparison, the best birthday present one can have.

Yet, the week has not ended.

The Noir et Blanc dinner took place yesterday. Pardon me for my ignorance for it was just recently I understand the meaning of the theme. ~~Thank you Yahoo!Babel Fish.~~

Noir et Blanc means Black and White. I'm pathetic. Somebody told me that we were supposed to wear black and white, but I have to clue that it have something to do with the theme. No wonder lah they didn't put the dressing code in the banners and posters :P.

By the way, the dinner was supposed to be on the 31st of July. Since UPM was on a "piggy" holiday at that time, it was postponed to the 7th of August. I was ~~furious~~ devastated when I got the news, since my Don Juan DeMarco aka the boyfriend will be having some sort of Community program in Kedah at that particular time. The thing is, we have been planning to attend my final year dinner years back, since he won't be around during the annual medical dinner, he promised to accompany me to this particular dinner.

Being an awesome boyfriend, he told me that he will "escape" the event for a while in order to attend the dinner, since there was no program being held until the next morning :)) *Edwin McCain's I'll Be on the blackground*. Eventhough he had to take the 1230pm bus on that day and literally run to the LRT station to catch the 730pm train, and we had to bolt out right after the melaram session in order to catch the 1200am bus, it was all worthwhile.

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I would like to take this opportunity to thank:

*vain gle aku*

Mama: For sponsoring my heels, being the best fashion critique (kalah Miss J!), altering my dress and last but not least, being a great sport :)

KakLong : For being such a great fashion critique (the 2nd liner, tak boleh lawan mama:P) as well as make-up artist! Mak pandai mekap nok!

1/3 of The Class of 2010

I will truly miss all of you guys!
Sayang korang. :)

and Don Juan DeMarco,
the greatest company of all time,
dibawa khas dari Indonesia ya Pak..
You are stuck with me for life.

:)

p/s: I know, the tittle is a tad corny, but I will only write nothing but the truth...:P

Sleepless

2009-08-04T17:44:00.002+08:00

I took a nap in the middle of reading a topic about Labour.

And in the middle of the one hour or so nap, I dreamt I was in the Labour room,

and my patient was struggling to expel her baby.

and the only thing that I heard in that dream was this:

" Dr Liyana nak tidur, tolong jangan bersalin dulu..."

and this dialogue was told to the patient by the on-call ObGyn specialist.

when I woke up, I can't resist to wonder,

is this a dejavu?

An opinion from an observant.

2009-08-01T20:50:00.006+08:00

I've been waiting to write about this for a while. Since the purpose of having this blog is for me to share things which has been bugging me, so might as well I blurt it out rather that let it stick in my mind for GOD knows how long.

Since, InsyaAllah, in plus minus a year, I will become a certified Doctor, and will be working for the government for TEN years. Nope, that isn't a typo. *please pray for me*

After 4 years and one month of being a humble medical student of UPM, I have received a number of opinions regarding Doctors, particularly those working in the government. Most of the so-called opinions, were in the form of criticism. And out of all the criticism, most of them were being expressed in such anger that me myself cannot restrain from being angry to that particular doctors (talk about defending my own clan :P). But in between all that anger and hatred , I know there are a number of people who doesn't feel that way towards them, and these people includes the doctors' immediate family members, the doctors' with good looks and humor, doctors' who give free MCs, patients who are patience, patient who has a crush on doctors and I think thats all about it. Sadly, that list of people is quite restricted.

Back in the old days, Doctor is considered as the most noble proffession. Nowadays, doctors is being treated more or less like a kopitiam shop. Once you taste a sip of white coffee in Doctor X's kopitiam and feel like it doesn't give you the uumph, you will tend to go to Doctor Y's kopitiam the next morning. Doctor shopping is currently a new trend in our society, particularly in the urban areas. Since the society is more 'educated' (or should I change it to 'richer') nowadays, they tend to seek for various opinions regarding their sickness. I'm not saying that this kind of practice is wrong, it is just the matter of trust. Or is it the quality of doctors nowadays is not on par as before? For me, being a good doctor is just a matter of experience. The textbook that they were using back then doesn't change much today pun. The experiences which adds up after several years practicing makes people wiser than they were before.

The other thing that has been bugging me since I started my clinical years in medical school is why do the patients always think that once they step in a doctor's office, they will assume that the doctor knew about their sickness already?.

Come on, we are mere humans for God's sake. It's not like we have some kind of power where we can read the mind of our patient. From my experience, A LOT of people asked me why do doctors have to ask a lot of questions during consultations. They expect us to just talk a little, and touch a lot! No people, it doesn't work that way. Doctors are not molesters. If we are, might as well we drop everything and be a Masseuse.

"Your medical history will be some of the most important information your doctor needs in reaching a diagnosis...", those are the words (not exactly-lah) which I will be telling the patients or those angry people if they start to question me on the purpose of doctors asking a lot of questions during consultations. And yes, I received a lot of "ohhhhh..." and "yeke...", after explaining to them. I'm expressing all this opinions not for the sake of condemning a particular person. Generally, all of us have our own opinion about everthing. But there are always a reason for an action. Everthing in life has a purpose.

Oh, last but not least, I'm not having my PMS.

Humor me, please.

2009-07-29T21:28:00.003+08:00

This week has been a very suprising week for me, really. Yet, I have another four more days to go! I conducted 2 deliveries this week! It was memorable, since the first one was an IUD baby (the baby died in utero) and the second one was a baby girl, and there were some technical difficulties I experienced during conducting. Should be more careful next time! Glad the doctors and Midwives were very helpful. Learnt some lesson out of it :)

Yesterday, I received another unexpected news. All UPM students, particularly in Serdang campus, were expected to evacuate our respective collages and return to our hometown until the 4th of August, as there were four UPM students were found positive of H1N1 virus. We were expected to quarantine ourselves. When I first got the news, I was in the labour room, waiting for another pregnant lady cervical os to be fully dilated. The feeling of disbelief mixed with upset, anger and a pinch of happiness surrounded me. The first thing that I can ever think of was tipu lahhhh, disusuli dengan..raya ni cuti panjang tak? dinner on lagi ke? ape aku nak buat esok lusa tulat dan hari seterusnya? On second thought, WTH, org dah bagi cuti. Terima je lah.

Later that evening, I went to Alamanda Putrajaya to have my late lunch. Guess whom bumped into? Pak Lah and his wife, strolling down Alamanda in their casual shirt, with no bodyguards whatsoever. My reaction was " macam penah nampak pakcik ni..tapi kat mana eh?...."Haha. Guess Alamanda is the new hanging spot for ex-PM.

Yesterday was my unofficial last day in ObGyn department as a medical student. ObGyn has always been fun and exciting. Lets just hope it will stay the same during my housemanship years too.

Random Points : July '09

2009-07-23T19:14:00.005+08:00

Somehow, I need to feed this blog with something.

So here's it:

1. The boyfriend has landed! :)))

2. Merchants of Bollywood was entertaining.

3. Finally, I'm a final year medical student.

4. I have to find a perfect outfit for dinner next week! Yikes!

5. I have oncall this weekend :( 800 - 0000. But somehow, I have a feeling that it going to be fruitful.

6. I'm rich.

The last statement is true. The end.

Green Fingers

2009-06-29T15:26:00.009+08:00

We went to my dad's kampung the other day and I had a chance to snap some pictures of my grandmother's garden.

Since the weather was great, I couldn't resist myself to go out and take a few shots of the blooming flowers and freshly harvested fruits. I admit, I love to take pictures of nature as they will never complain of how my shots will turn out to be ( big grin ;)

Both of my grandmothers have greenfingers, and obviously that talent is passed on to the second generation, my parents. I hope there's a greenthumb gene inside of me too, probably waiting to come out once I bury myself in dirt sigh.Lets hope that talent doesn't go down the drain shall we.

The Time Traveler's Wife : The Movie

2009-06-29T00:44:00.006+08:00

This is truly something to look forward to :)
The trailer is something like a dejavu to me.
Lets hope that what I imagine while reading the novel is on par with my expectations on the movie.

Random Points : June '09

2009-06-26T14:35:00.005+08:00

1. I've not been active in blogger since last 3 months. As you can see, I've been transported to Sandakan Sabah for my medical electives, and I have no access to free internet connection there. It was a pretty hard time for me since I couldn't feed my pet in petsociety like I did everyday in KL. Poor Bam Bam.

2. Now, you can know where my whereabouts by following me on Twitter!click on the link. Whether I'm France eating crossaint or in Hollywood chasing Johnny Depp filming Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland (he look hideous as a Mad Hatter!), you will definitely be updated!

Looking at this picture really bring back BAD memories. Remember IT? The haunted clown movie? I can't even get into shower properly for a few weeks back then.

He was much better playing Sam. :)

3. I hate to even think about this. I'll be back to school in about a week time. Being a final year student, it will be a HARD year for me and my friends. But I really, REALLY want to get over all this torture fast, in order for me to get to the next level of torture, the Housemanship. This is fun, really. Do pray for our us to pass, as well as for our happiness.

4. Following number 3, why don't the management reshuffle our grouping? Its not that hardpun. It really can give me something to look forward to. :(

5. Swimming is F.U.N.! I'm slowly catching up with my swimming skills I've learned ten years ago, with the help of the swimming addict herself, the elder sister.

6. Anybody who has a Facebook account and think that you owe me something, care to join me in my posse in Fashion Wars, and Cap'n Seamus Kookypants crew in Pirates Rule The Caribbean (its a facebook game application, and yeah, I know, I really need to go out and breathe some fresh air or something) By doing that, you are free of me debt :)

7. Writing in points Che Det's style is much more faster and easier for me I think. That is because my mind works like a firework. When something comes up, it doesn't stay there for long.

Sarang Heyo!

2009-06-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

Mari bersama-sama hafal dance step ni dan buat video clip sendiri?

=)

Sabah has TONS to offer!

2009-06-18T22:27:00.009+08:00

Jungle trekking at Ox Bow Lake, Kinabatangan

Lower Kinabatangan river cruising

Canopy treetop walkway at Poring Hotspring, Ranau

Kinabalu National Park, Kundasang

Hiking at Mount Kinabalu. (weehuu :P)

See the Orang Utans at Sepilok, Sandakan

Gomantong Cave, Sukau

Sibuan Island, Semporna

Those were the places that we've been when we were in Sandakan, Sabah. There are a lot more interesting places that we don't have the chance to go, due to the lack of moolah as well as weekends-lah.

For wildlife enthusiast, Borneo is one place you should go! There are lots of National Parks in Sabah for you to get lost into. And for those who wants to go to their honeymoon, I recommend Semporna. You can find the most beautiful crystal clear water, white sandy beaches as well as breath-taking water-chalet in Semporna since its the getaway to multiple number of great islands i.e. Sipadan.

I surely will miss my six weeks in Sandakan, the great company and friendly people that we have make friend with. :)

And yes, my aim of 70% GO JOLI and take pictures during our stay in Sabah (refer to the previous entry) has reached its target, but the 1% aim of going to the hospital for the sake of filling up the attendance has reached above its target limit to 20%, since we went to the Medical Camping in the center of Borneo.

Ok lah tu kan?

Sandakan oh Borneo!

2009-04-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

taken from karrantza's photostream

Current location : Sandakan, Sabah.

Yeah, for the first time in 22 years and 8 days of my life, I'm outside my comfort zone. For 6 solid weeks. I hope airasia is not planning giving off free tickets or I'll be the first one to book the flight and break my vow to stay here for 6 weeks without fail. *sigh*

And to make it more uninteresting, its it not purely for the reason of taking a break from my usual routine. It is supposed to be:

60% as a prerequisite before stepping to our final year of medical school
20% for an early exposure before becoming the so called 'House Officer'
15% be independant!
5% enjoy ourselves before our the finals.

But for me, it is a little bit different:

70% GO JOLI! and take pictures!
10% to meet the orangutans in Sepilok, Sandakan
9% to hit the beaches!
6% to go shopping
4% jalan-jalan, cari makan-makan.
1% to go to Hospital Duchess of Kent, Sandakan for the sake of filling up the attendance.

I'm not going to lie to you, but I'm not looking forward on seeing sick people in the next 6 weeks.
But a med student got to do what a med student got to do.

Along the way, its not a sin to go play play right? Hehe.

But I'm SURELY gonna miss my family tho'....

:(

Lots of love,
All the way from Borneo.

'Tak Payah Susah-Susah' Wishlist.

2009-04-16T19:01:00.023+08:00

*camera case only

Some pictures are linked. Click for more details.

Too much for turning 22 eh?

Ok lah then.

Tak payah la susah-susah.

Post yang kat bawah ni pun dah kira okay.

Heheee...

the best i've ever had.

2009-04-16T01:34:00.005+08:00

One thing that makes me happy every single day is getting a phonecall from him.

Although it will just be a simple hello or a fight of who's getting fatter after several months apart.

But today I received one of the rare ones. As usual, I waited for his call, which is usually at midnight.

But Vertical Horizon 'The Best I've Ever Had' was not heard until one and a half hour past midnight.

I bet he won't remember that he called today.

Coz I'm pretty sure he's 100% asleep when he called. Nasib lah boleh faham ape die cakap. Haha.

Thank you for calling me in your dream sayang.

Never the best feeling.

2009-04-09T17:49:00.006+08:00

I always think that I'm inadequate.

When it comes to people, eventhough they are at the level of my waist, I have a feeling that they are above me in some aspect. Its not that I feel intimidated by litte kids, I'm not that stunted. It is just like I'm not living my life full enough to be wiser, to be strong enough to stand up and speak. Sometimes I think that the voices inside me dominates my sound box. I'm not hallucinating, just don't get me wrong. I have not lost my sanity, I know.

Eloquence is really hard to attain, but it is easy to act like you are eloquent enough to face the world. I hope some day it will come to me.

Although I know, it might not be easy.

Footnote : One week to go!!!

Random Points

2009-04-01T20:57:00.006+08:00

1. Nowadays, I didn't even realize how fast time goes by. When I woke up this morning, its already April. But the thing is, I feel like february has just ended yesterday. It Is quite ironic actually as ObGyn suppose to make days feel like ~~months~~ years.

2. I love April. Not because I will turn a year older in the middle of the month, but just because its April.

3. I realized that I have been thinking too much lately. I don't even notice that I have not cut my hair since October 2008!

4. I missed travelling. For the past two years, in this time of the year, my sisters and I were travelling in Indonesia :(

5. I missed talking ~~on the phone~~ to him :((

6. For the record, I have been staying in Kampung Baru on weekdays for the past two months.

7. I want to go out and take pictures with my big black machine soo badly!

At the lowest.

2009-03-25T18:01:00.006+08:00

For a moment, it is difficult to get your mind off somebody.
Particularly when it was only yesterday that the time is mutually shared.
And only for a split second, the contentment slips away.
When you realized that the path you take is not the same as his.
And the comfort of being beside him will be months away.
That is the time when the tears are shed, and the feeling is poured.
As being strong willed can easily be mimicked, and sadness can easily be misinterpreted.

Earth Hour: Save Earth, Go Green! (or black)

2009-03-15T16:08:00.006+08:00

If you think you have throwed mountains of rubbish or have been using CFC aerosol spray long enough in your life which contributes to the formation of unwanted holes in the ozone layer, you should become a part of Earth Hour campaign in order to pay your debts to Mother Nature.

Bukan susah pun, on 28th March 2009 at 2030 to 2130 hours, grab a blanket as well as your picnic basket and head to your lawn. You should spend that one hour stargazing, instead of watching tv, blogging, facebook-ing, or doing any electricity-required activities.

Vote for EARTH by turning off your lights for ONE HOUR. It is world's first global election day.

EARTH vs GLOBAL WARMING

Which side are you?

Convinient for everyday use.

2009-03-15T12:29:00.002+08:00

[Click here for your very own Swedish furniture]

:P

Happy Tree Day

2009-03-09T18:29:00.013+08:00

Today was truly a great day to go out with my big black machine, the models and two awesome mommies. Eventhough it was drizzly, but we managed to take great shots!

Love these people to death! :)

Hiding in the closet.

2009-03-07T14:29:00.005+08:00

When I was little, I used to love playing hide and seek with my brothers and sister.I used to be the toughest one to be found, as far as I can remember. Thanks to the anticipatory anxiety I felt everytime we were starting a game, I will find the toughest hiding spot in my house. Once, I hid underneath the tudung saji. My brother who was the one searching, came in and out of the room and could not even locate me when the fact was the tudung saji (with me inside) was located in the center of the room. I won the game that day :).

But if we were to repeat those precious moments in the near future, I think it will be impossible for me to fit inside the tudung saji like I used to be. But that does not mean I won't play hide and seek anymore. I can still fit inside a closet ;). Closet was also one of my favorite hiding spot, but not really a stratergic place to hide (you know what I mean if you have played hide and seek enough in your life).

I wasn't planning to talk about hide and seek in the first place actually. Yesterday, I was looking for something to wear and suddenly, something smacked on me..

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR!

Okay, thats probably too drastic. Lets change it..

I NEED TO RENEW and revamp MY WARDROBE!

Nope, that is not my closet. obviously.

But if I have those, it will definitely be a breath of fresh air. Hmmphh.

Yippiee

2009-02-25T17:24:00.004+08:00

Newsflash : Package of the year will arrive soon!

It's too awkward to feel like this in the middle of ObGyn frenzy.

Screw awkwardness.

Yippiee!

25 random things.

2009-02-18T23:39:00.004+08:00

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. Needless to say, I'm the world's most accounted daydreamer. Sometimes I'm quite suprised of how I can achieve my current stage of life when most of my days are filled with fantasies and hobbits :P.

2. I love the feeling of sourness of teh-o-ais-limau that reaches my throat, definitely soothing.

3. Being a medical student, I (and other med student i believe) have this tendency of over-diagnosing myself, which in turn has lead me to a nearly-miserable life, as well as ruining other people's day ( you know who you are har har har)

4. I don't know how to play even a single musical instrument (obviously I don't inherit my dad's musical genes). Recorders have long gone from my list as I have forgotten how to play it from day I lost my saliva-filled recorder, which was during my secondary school.

5. I have a dream of becoming a scientist when I was young but I got lost along the way and ended up in med school.

6. I heart photography.

7. I admire little things, like how blue the sky is in the evening, how lights can be so beautiful at night and the ray of sunlight when they catches even a tiny drop of water.

8. I have an elder sister, and we are close.

9. I have two younger brothers , and I love 'em both. :)

10. My sister is a lawyer. And they say lawyers and doctors does not goes along that well. But hey, guess what, we share the same bed. How's that for a change. :P

11. I receive/make international calls nearly every day.

12. Maxis operator thinks I'm Indonesian, as I usually get promotional messages in Indonesian language.

13. I have a Celcom sim card which is developed exclusively for Indonesian staying in Malaysia.

14. If you don't know me and you are reading #12 and #13 statement, you might think I'm obsessed with Indonesia or I'm desperated to be an Indonesian.

15 . I'm a proud Malaysian. (referring to the previous statement)

16. I hate bean-sprouts.

17. I'm in training to be ambidextrous.

18. My concentration is as short as a 10 year old.

19. I'm not a big fan of amphibians.

20. I'm allergic to grammar mistakes. That's why it takes me a few hours to finish a new post. But the thing is, I'm not that good in grammar. You do the math.

21. I hate K.L. period. (this maybe temporary.ngeh)

22. I love colorful things. It keeps my adrenaline pumping.

23. I'm in dire need of a vacation. (who doesn't?)

24. I need a cupfull dose of caffiene every morning or I'll pass out.

25. I don't get it how people can think of a new status in facebook every five minutes.

Tags : Nadia Zainal and Hobbits. :P

Dreams do come true.

2009-02-14T20:43:00.004+08:00

"You will never reach your goal until you start to take action, any action."

-Byron Pulsifer

Lovin' every inch of the big black machine!

Painting the sky with a smile.

2009-02-02T10:29:00.008+08:00

I've been away from Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur for 4 weeks ( laugh all you want people, today I have lectures!), which explain why I've not been active in blogging recently. Currently, I'm in Juasseh, Kuala Pilah, having a hands on experience on the health of the community. Cewahh.

And because of that, for the past 4 weeks, I've been deprived from Internet Connection. I'm actually quite impressed of myself for the achievement. :))

But yesterday, thanks to Celcom Broadband Daily Unlimited, I've been able to connect myself with the world for just RM 6 for 24 hours!. ( jadi promoter kejap). All I need is a phone with GPRS or 3G setting, a virus free laptop as well as phone credit and I 'm just a click away with the world!

Imagine lah duduk Kuala Pilah for 4 weeks, takde internet connection. But I survived! I'm not procrastinating lah being sent to Kuala Pilah for 5 weeks. Actually, I'm lovin' it! Now I only have 5 days left before I go back to rat infested Kampung Baru. Kind of sad thinking about it (tambahlah lagi lepas ni posting OnG). :(((

But now my credit will expire in just 15 minutes, so I will post the detail (as well as the pictures) of my stay here in the next post. Ciao!

Zero-eight to zero-nine.

2008-12-31T20:56:00.007+08:00

311208

I will be seeing you soon.
At different places and time.
No distance can separate us.
Even if I have to wait for several moons.

-IMU already.....

And oh, thank you zero-eight.
You have made me riper.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

010109

Hello zero-nine.
No resolutions for you, sorry.
Will just let time do the job.

:))

Lets de-stress!

2008-12-28T21:12:00.009+08:00

In conjunction with the de-stressing campaign launched by Miss Ayu, I've completed her wedding tag. Yay! Finally I have a reason to discuss about this topic. Haha. Kidding. Wedding can be a nightmare for some, but for me, it is the day when everything matters, and when I can prove to the world that true love exists. Yep, call me corny. But that is the truth. I don't think I can handle marrying someone whom I have no feelings to. :P Here is it then..

1.How old are you?
Twenty-one.

2. Are you single?
Taken, and lovin' every single moment of it.

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
Around 25 or 26, considering my income is not more than 200 per month, and the boyfriend is far and all. But who knows right, probably I'll ring the bell earlier and God forbid, later.

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
Since Johnny Depp already tied his knot and Lance Bass has turned gay, I think I just will stick to this one, Dengan izin Allah. :))

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Nobody.

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
I always dream of a white garden wedding, with the pelamin decorated with fresh flowers and rose petals everywhere.

7. Your ideal motif?
Off white theme, decorated with pastel colored flowers.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
Anywhere with white sandy beaches, crystal clear water and breath-taking scenery, as well as beautiful sunset. At this moment, I'm thinking of an island in Greece. I fell in love with it after watching Mamma Mia!. Stunning!

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
A small, family and friends only wedding would be nice. But it is impossible to do so, since I have a very big family, friends, as well as family friends.

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
A wedding up to my standard. Not too simple, not too sophisticated.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
No vows what-so-ever in Malay weddings. Only akad nikah, which is fixed.

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
Three layers. Covered with white fondant, decorated with edible pastel colored flowers.

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
Hotels means protocols, RSVPs and pissed off customers. I don't think I can handle that.

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
A night wedding is much more nicer compared with the evening and morning, since the possibility of raining is low and there's not sunlight to bring up the heat, but it is totally unconventional and tiresome. So, I'd rather stick with the afternoon up to evening wedding.

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Outdoors. Indoors will be too stuffy and crowded.

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom/bride?
Currently, I'm trying to think of a new kind of entrance, since the old kompang and the bride covering her face with kipas lipat is soo lame and typical.

17. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding?
Over the weekends, I went to a friend to a friend's wedding and they have a 'caklempong 'group playing songs over the corner. I was fascinated on how songs played in wedding can effect the mood of the reception. So, I think I will get one and ditch the typical-noisy-weddings-with-karaoke. For song selection, I will go for Dealova by Once.

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Definitely a night person.

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?

Light one. Solemn ceremony is too boring.

20. What age do you want to get married?
Refer to question number 3.

21. Describe your ideal husband/wife.

A man who comes home everyday with a smile in his face even after a hectic day, and treat me like his best buddy, talks to me like the world is ours, understands my feeling and try to comfort me when I'm down, can cheer me up and makes me laugh, loyal, forgiving, sensitive and can lead me to the right path.

22. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Fine dining is too aristocrat-y. Pakai tangan sudaahhh.

23. Champagne or red wine?
Sirap lah. Murah, lagi halal.

24. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Erm. Right after would be nice. :P

25. Money or household item?
Money.

26. Who will pay for the bills?
Sharing is caring :)

27. Are you ready for married life?
Not for now. I'm still young. huu~

28. Do you think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
Yes. No doubt about that.

29. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
I've been true to my boyfriend for 5 years and still counting. I have no reason not to do the same after marriage.

30. How many kids do you like?
A football team of kids. Haha. I love kids. If only I can have a lot of them with the burden of my work.

31. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
Anything will do so that we can still save up our money for our beautiful bungalow in the future.

32. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
Diamond wedding would be nice. Diamond is a girl best friend right.:P If not, I'll go with white gold.

33. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
Nasi putih with traditional lauk-pauk with ulam and all. Nasi minyak is too unhealthy. Huuhu

34. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
I have to spare this question, I've answered 33 already!

p/s: Ayu, first tag tu tak buat. If not bocorlah segala rahsia.:P

Footnote: Just went to a friend engagement this afternoon. Congratulations Intan! Hope you 'll tie the knot soon ;) *Badi tunang tolonglah higgaplah kat badan sayaaa..Hahahaha..:P*

I want to fly.

2008-12-13T14:01:00.005+08:00

I had never felt so relieved and free for months. Not even when I'm having my holiday last week.

Thanks to the closure of one chapter of disaster in my life as a medical student, the Community follow-up posting. I would like to congratulate myself after managing to do it out of scratch.

And oh,
after months of waiting, finally, I have something to look forward to.
HIS arrival.
:))

But for now, I think what I want to do is go and get a new book, probably the one with happy endings and dive into it.

Yellow feet day.

2008-12-04T20:30:00.016+08:00

Meet Sunrise, my new pair of flats.

I owned her last week, out of my mother generosity. Sayang Mama~

I seldom buy shoes. Usually, I will buy them only when I really have to or if I feel like my feet deserves a new treat after months of wearing the same old shoe. This time, I bought her because of the second reason. I'm all fired up the first time I saw her, and I knew I have to get her.

First stop with Sunrise : KLCC.
I had lunch with a senior Petronas officer, two Lawyers and a Hotlink promoter. Nothing official just had a business meeting with 'em. Haha drama lebihh. It was my auntie, my sister, her friend and my cousin, all working under one roof. My sister is currently doing her practical in the Law Department in Petronas for one month.

After filling up my empty belly, I went to Kinokuniya. It is a sin if I don't visit Kino when I'm in KLCC, or it will be like going to Sushi King without eating sushi. Yep, I know the books are a little bit pricey compared to MPH and Borders, but I love hanging out there.

The reason why I got addicted to places full with books, story books to be exact, was my mother. My mother is a librarian and my siblings and I always follow her to work since we were small. She will bring home storybooks for us. She also often brought us to bookstores, and when we were there, one hour was usually not enough for us to search for the perfect book. Other than going the usual bookstores in malls, there was this little bookstore where she usually brought us, located in Central Market, where we can either buy or rent the books. The books there are either first or second hands. The second hands are of course, cheaper and the books are all in good conditions.

Getting back with my day with Sunrise, I decided to take a train to Central Market, since I have to wait for my sister until 5pm, and it was only 2.30pm. I has been a while since I bought my last book there, probably since high school. But it was truly worth it, despite having to get through the heavy rain and to make it worst, I've forgotten to bring along my umbrella, which is a habit of mine (in the end I'll usually end up buying a new umbrella) . I finally got my hands on one of Mitch Albom's bestselling novel, The Five People You Meet in Heaven. I was searching for Tuesdays With Morrie at first, but as I said, the bookstore was small, and I'm afraid if I'll be buried in a stack of books and I'm not very fond of dying when the people that I love was not around, as Isabella Swan said,

"...dying in the place of someone I love seems a good way to go.."

[after watching it, I understand why Edward-Cullen-Craziness are currently infecting the minds of young girls, not to forget the young-at-heart too]

It has some defect here and there, but it was perfect.

After one hour searching for my book, and my sister's as well, I roamed around Central Market to wait for the rain to stop. For my surprise, there was a stall selling printed shoulder bags. I'm allergic to anything printed, from vintage, patchwork to floral prints. I totally HAVE to get them, considering the price was cheap compared to other places. Previously, I purchased two printed shoulder bags, one I got it from Malacca, the second one from Bandung. Now I can add up another one in my collection. Yay!

The shoulder bag was blue-white-chocolate colored paisley print, I was totally decisive when I decided to buy it because it totally worth the sweat.

After the rain has stopped, which I realized only after I have bought an umbrella which cost me 10 bucks (refer to the previous statement) *greatness* I took a train back to KLCC. The umbrella was cute though and hey, I can add it up to my umbrella collections.(optimistically thinking)

A lunch accompanied by great people, hanging out in Kino, a new book and paisley-shoulder bag, not to forget a new umbrella, today was definitely a great day out, wasn't it Sunrise?

Footnote : I should write a post with the title 'The Headturning Reality of Wearing Yellow Shoes'. Haha :P

Confessions of a Signboard Enthusiast

2008-12-03T00:07:00.012+08:00

Confession: I have a thing with signboards.

Especially the peculiar ones.

Here are some of it which I think are totally odd
and it is a sin if I don't post it in my blog.

#1

Location : Port Dickson's Mosque

My friends and I were on our way to grab our lunch when we saw this signboard. It was near to the main gate to the mosque. Obviously, they want to avoid people from blocking the main entrance. But we were laughing our hearts out when we read the "Harap Faham" part.

Memang orang Malaysia ni kebanyakannya
tak faham bahasa. LOL

Location: Bandar Hilir, Melaka

When you are in Malacca, and you have a couple of days off left and you have no idea where will be your next holiday destination, don't hesitate to go to London. It is only 10632 kilometers away.

#3

Location : Dago Plaza, Bandung, Indonesia

I was pretty amazed when I saw this signboard to the washroom. I get the bananas and all, but apples? I have to think real hard to get the 'picture'. Probably pears are hard to find there.

#4

Location: Taman Safari, Puncak, Indonesia

Lesson of the day, ponies bites.

Scars.

2008-12-02T02:09:00.005+08:00

" Chin up. Put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds: celebrate them. The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. You're in a lion fight, Stevens. Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar."

- Grey's Anatomy Season 4, Episode 12

Tag-O-Mania

2008-11-28T14:34:00.004+08:00

Tagged by Anot.
Thanks for the tag anot. But I did the first tag only, the second one I dare not do (takut kena sumpahan).

7 ciri² wanita/lelaki idaman anda.

He must be straight/ tak gay or bisexual.
I won't exceed his height even when I'm wearing heels.
Not clinging. Means I don't have to stand more than 5 times of phone calls per day asking "where are you?"
Have a good sense of humor and he can laughs at my jokes.
Can guide me to the right path.
Good looks won't hurt=p

7 wanita/lelaki yang pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup.

Lance Bass
Dave Moffats
Johnny Depp
Milo Ventigmilia
Patrick Dempsey
Ilhan Mansiz
Khairul Hafidz Al-Khair (pernah dan akan terus~hee)

[sila baca >entry< ini untuk penjelasan lanjut]

7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.

Berdebar-debar
Gembira tak terkata
Nak terkencing dan sakit perut, bila sampai toilet terbantut semuanya.
Gelisah kerana tak tahu nak makan apa (esp. the first date lah haha. Kalau pegi McD confirm order nuggets je.sekarang bantai semua)
When waiting for him, menyesal, apesal lah aku buat keje bodoh ni.
When he comes, senyum bagai nak rak. Mengalahkan doraemon.
Tak cukup tidur malam sebelum date.

7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.

Bali
Europe
Hawaii
America
Australia
India
Egypt

[Mekah and Madinah tak termasuk dalam list ini. Kerana ia termasuk dalam list MESTI DAN AKAN PERGI Insyaallah.]

7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan anda.

Jam tangan
Barangan elektrik
Kereta
Laptop
Coklat
Baju
Handphone

[kalau ada duit la]

7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.

Lelaki Ini by Anuar Zain [tukar kepada perempuan ini]
My Heroine by Silverstein
Dan Sebenarnya by Yuna
Life is Wonderful by Jason Mraz
Ikhlas Tapi Jauh by V.E.
Ocean Size Love by Leigh Nash
Awake by Secondhand Serenade

7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.

sesiapa
yang
terasa
nak
buat
teramatlah
dialu-alukan

[cukup 7 kan kan kan]

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Checked!

2008-11-26T01:04:00.007+08:00

Current checklist:

Pediatrics
Accident & Emergency
Psychiatry
Family Medicine
Community Medicine
Obstetric and Gynecology
Elective

Yeahhh! Four more to go! And hopefully, if I pass all of the end posting exams, I will be able to fly to Sandakan for my elective, which will be the first time in history I will be away from my family for more than a week! SIX WEEKS to be exact. For the first time, I will be out of my tempurung. InsyaAllah, if the hospital in Sandakan is willing to take us-lah. Currently the girls and I are putting our thoughts together in order to write an essay on why we have chosen Sabah for our electives. We have no idea on what to write, but I the only thing that I have in mind right now is to jalan-jalan, and the reason we chosen Sabah is because we got will have a chance to go to lots of exciting places! Okay I know I'm not taking this thing seriously. Neeeeeed tooo fooocuuussss. Naah~ Not right now. Still in the holiday mood. :P

I've finished my end posting Psychiatry exam just now. *Relieved*. Sekarang perlu tawakkal je, I did my VERY best, and hope all the craps that I've blurted out this morning was enough in order for me to pass. After four years living as a medical student, getting a pass is more than enough for me. If I'm aiming for distinction, I think I will be wearing a one inch thick glasses and walking like a dead corpse by now.

Psychiatric posting was FUN! At first, I can't deny lah, I was scared like shite, and I don't think I can go to the ward and deal with the mentally disabled. Stigma punya pasal lah. But as time goes by, the idea of going to the ward and clinic was very far from nerve-wracking. I'm very proud of myself because I managed to stay in the ward until evening! Kalau time medicine posting, pukul 12 dah nak balik bilik. Ngehehe.

For the medical students yang belum lagi psychiatric posting, I can assure you, it will be an unforgettable train ride of your life. For others, I know, the things that will come to your mind if you think about the mentally disabled is "they does not belong to the society, desert them..bla..bla". Remember this! They have feelings too, just like all of us. Only that their brain-hormones are not really in balance. Just think it this way, if your estrogen or testosterone are imbalance, your behavior will be slightly or very far from normal-kan? Just like them-lah. I'm not saying that if you see them in public you can pat them at the back and talk about the weather. Just for once, put the stigma aside, and treat them like human beings. They have too much stressors in their lives to begin with. *emo kejap :P*

Quoted from a mural in Hospital Bahagia Tg Rambutan:

"Bahagia kami, kami bahagia...."

Actually I have no idea what it means, but I want to add something to it:

"Bahagia kami, kami bahagia, semua bahagia, mari berbahagia"

Perfect! Now all I have to do is call Hospital Bahagia and ask them to repaint the mural. At least the inmates have something to do other than working in the kebun or running around naked in the 544 hectars of land.:P

Footnote : Currently on holiday mode! Yay! 26 days in counting before he comes back home! :)

Doze off therapy.

2008-11-15T19:39:00.010+08:00

Location : Relaxation Therapy Room, Federal Lunatic Asylum aka Hospital Bahagia Ulu Kinta.
Camera : 5mp Sony Ericsson Cybershot C902. Unknown shutter speed (trying to describe it like a photography-geek but she knows she is far from being one)
Purpose : Light therapy for people with anxiety disorder.

For your information, I have a fair share of having difficulty in falling asleep, which is a very common problem in every healthy, ungrateful homosapiens. Previously, if I have difficulty in dozing off in one particular night or if I want to take a nap, what i will usually do is:

I will count sheeps.

Yep. I know its lame.. old school..and very conventional.

Blah blah. But somehow, I found the countings can distract me from thinking about everything. I'm a thinker and usually, I keep all my problems to myself. So, imagine lah betapa banyaknya masalah diri I have to think about, belum lagi masalah negara tu. :P

Last week, I had a daytrip to the prestigious hospital bahagia located in Tanjung Rambutan (which has been a very enjoyable and memorable trip, I will definitely go there again, considering its very near to my kampung. But as a commoner lah :P), and I had a chance to visit the relaxation therapy room, which is indicated for patients who have anxiety disorder. There, I manage to capture the above pictures. Nice isn't it? And I was wondering, kan ke best ada lampu mcm tu dalam bilik. Confirm boleh tido ngan nyenyaknya...

But the thing is, kat mana la nak dapat beli lampu secantik tu. Kalau ada pon, it will definitely cost a fortune. So, for the time being, I will stick on counting sheeps in order to get a good night sleep. If not, who will take care of my precious, fluffy sheeps? I know I cannot count on Mary. She has her own lambs to be taken care of.

Footnote : As far as I can remember, I usually count not far from 20 sheeps before I slept. I really have to count more in order to outnumber Mary's lambs. She has been in this business for quite a long time thats for sure. So, my future goal is; buy the neon lights and breed more sheeps.

I'm no rockstar.

2008-11-11T21:24:00.006+08:00

I might not be the the person who plays the guitar and sing songs about life and love in front of a bunch of music enthusiasts. If you can accept an off tuned, low pitched and flat sound accompanying a strum of a guitar played in a manner where the deaf wishes not to hear if they got a chance to gain their sense of hearing, then you are more than welcome to buy the ticket to my concert. But mind me, I don't have a myspace music account for me to keep track of my fans and also to post items regarding the upcoming events in my life, which most rockstars (or rockstar wanna-be) have. So, I'm no rockstar.

The thing is, I'm not even a rock, so why dream on becoming a star?

I'm soft. I'm consists of a vanilla-cream-filled core , covered by a soft bun which melts in you mouth the moment you take the first bite. Don't touch me when your palms are sweaty, or I'll melt in your hand. Things will definitely get messy if you play with me. So, lesson one, wipe you hands before you have any intention to come near me. Hence, I'm not even close to the family of rocks. I'm indulge-able. Haha. The point is, my interpretation of rock here has nothing to do with the head banding or screaming-your lungs out type of songs. Rock equals to hard and pain.

But in reality, there is no such thing as a soft-star or even an indulge-able star. My interpretation of a star is not based on fortune. For me, fame is the key essence of becoming a star. But I believe fame has nothing to do with your position in the society. Fame is when you have the greatest circle of family and friends around you, who supports you and never fail to push you to the top. They love you unconditionally, and sits beside you when you are at the lowest point in your life. They unleash the best in you, and let you glow. That glow is what makes you the star. I'm no ordinary star.I glow because of the people who is in my life, in the past, present and hopefully, the future.

Pertaining to the earlier question,

I'm not even a rock, so why dream on becoming a star?

My answer would be,

I am a star, and I had never dream of becoming a rock.

............and I'm proud to be a soft-indulge-able-glowing-star!

My Grateful List

2008-11-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

Senarai Kesyukuran Liyana

Liyana's Grateful List
( written in Malay)

1. Saya bersyukur kerana saya baru lepas makan semasa post entry ini

2. Saya bersyukur kerana Allah telah memanjangkan umur saya untuk hidup selama 21 tahun 10 bulan dan 19 hari dan saya bersyukur untuk hari-hari yang bakal saya tempuhi, Insyaallah.

3. Saya bersyukur mempunyai seorang kakak, merangkap kawan perempuan paling baik saya dunia akhirat, dan kami berkongsi baju, bilik, rahsia, masalah dan banyak lagi. (boyfriend tak termasuk ye :P)

4. Saya bersyukur mama dan ayah saya seorang yang memahami, sporting dan tidak pernah mengongkong saya.

5. Saya bersyukur kerana kereta Satria kakak saya (juga kereta saya dan adik beradik saya) yg bernama 'Micheal @ Mike" (sebab dia ada resting tremor @ Parkinson) sekarang secara tak langsung digunakan oleh saya diatas sebab-sebab yang tak payahlah diterangkan panjang lebar disini.

6. Saya bersyukur kerana saya mempunyai teman lelaki yang amat memahami saya dan saya amat selesa bersama dengannya.

7. Saya bersyukur kerana walaupun saya pernah merancang untuk menjalani diet selama sebulan, tetapi saya hanya mampu bertahan untuk sehari. (logik ke bersyukur sbb ni? ergh bantai laa)

8. Saya bersyukur kerana saya mampu bertahan selama 4 tahun di Sekolah Perubatan dan berharap saya mampu bertahan setahun lagi!

9. Saya bersyukur kerana saya lompat darjah tiga semasa tahun 1996.

10. Saya bersyukur kerana saya tinggal di pinggiran bandar.

11. Saya bersyukur kerana mendapat hidayah untuk mula memakai Hijab 9 tahun lepas.

12. Saya bersyukur kerana walaupun saya rabun jauh, saya masih boleh melihat dengan memakai cermin mata ataupun kanta lekap dan rabun jauh tidak termasuk dalam senarai OKU.

13. Saya bersyukur kerana hubungan saya dan adik-beradik sangat rapat.

kegilaan

14. Saya bersyukur kerana ahli keluarga saya selalu berkumpul untuk makan di meja makan di rumah dan selalu berkongsi lawak jenaka semasa makan.

15. Saya bersyukur kerana pada bulan Disember 2003, saya telah pergi ke rumah terbuka kawan saya di Seri Petaling.

16. Saya bersyukur kerana saya sudah mendapat lesen 'Competent' awal tahun ini.

17. Saya bersyukur kerana saya bukanlah seorang yang 'fussy' bila memilih makanan. Cuma saya allergic kepada ketam sahaja.

18. Saya bersyukur kerana saya bukanlah seorang Psikotik, walaupun saya rasa terdapat sedikit ciri-ciri Neurotik dalam diri saya.

19. Saya bersyukur kerana teman lelaki saya pernah membeli saya' plush toy' kucing kerana mahu saya mengatasi kelemahan 'ailurophobia'(fobia terhadap kucing) saya. Walaupun kehadiran patung itu tidak membawa apa-apa perubahan terhadap fobia itu, saya tahu dia telah cuba sedaya upaya untuk menolong saya mengatasi kelemahan saya dengan cara Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Itu sudah cukup bagi saya untuk berasa dihargai :)

20. Saya bersyukur kerana saya mempunyai kesedaran untuk menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu setelah 5 tahun bergelumang dengan bahasa Melayu pasar/bahasa sms.

21. Saya bersyukur kerana kedua-dua Opah saya masih hidup dan saya berdoa setiap hari agar dipanjangkan umur mereka berdua supaya saya boleh merawat mereka apabila saya diiktiraf sebagai pegawai perubatan nanti.

22. Saya bersyukur kerana peristiwa nombor 15 telah menemukan saya dan teman lelaki saya buat pertama kali. :)

23. Saya bersyukur kerana mama dan ayah saya tidak pernah memaksa saya untuk menjurus ke bidang perubatan dan saya disini diatas kerelaan diri saya sendiri.

24. Saya bersyukur kerana saya masih berhubungan dengan kawan rapat saya semasa di sekolah menengah.

25. Saya bersyukur kerana saya tidak obsess untuk termasuk dalam golongan yang bersize extra small.

26. Saya bersyukur kerana saya dan rakan-rakan rapat saya di sekolah perubatan masih berkongsi cerita-cerita lawak dan suka duka berkaitan dengan kehidupan kami sebagai seorang pelajar dan juga kehidupan harian kami dan mampu ketawa terbahak-bahak sampai tak boleh bernafas.

27. Saya bersyukur kerana saya masih ada rasa bersalah dan mahu bertaubat selepas bergosip.

28. Saya bersyukur kerana setelah setahun menjalani kehidupan di kolej matrikulasi, saya telah mengenali ramai rakan-rakan yang sangat memberi kesan keatas kehidupan saya sekarang, terutama roomates saya di asrama P2- no 30. Saya sayang mereka!

29. Saya bersyukur walaupun impian saya untuk melanjutkan pelajaran ke luar negara, saya masih mendapat tempat membuat ijazah perubatan di dalam negara. Ada hikmah di sebalik kejadian.

30. Saya bersyukur mama dan ayah saya masih sihat untuk menjalani kehidupan harian. Semoga Allah mengurniakan mereka berdua kesihatan dan memanjangkan umur mereka berdua. Aminnnnn.

31. Saya bersyukur kerana harga petrol sudah turun. Semoga ia akan turun lagi di masa hadapan.

32. Saya bersyukur saya mempunyai platform untuk menulis isi hati saya, walaupun saya tahu followers saya sekumitt je.

33. Saya bersyukur keluarga besar saya di sebelah mama yang terdiri dari lebih 10 buah keluarga, mempunyai organisasi yang tersendiri untuk mengeratkan lagi tali persaudaraan kami.

34. Saya bersyukur kerana mempunyai sambungan wireless di rumah. Saya tidak lagi perlu berebut dengan adik beradik serta ayah saya di rumah untuk menggunakan internet di desktop. hehee

35. Saya bersyukur kerana saya dan cousin2 perempuan saya amat rapat sehingga kami mempunyai pact dan persatuan tarian bollywood sendiri :P

L-R: Me, Sarah, Kak Ira, Kak Ila, Kak Long

the cousins and neices in action (bila takde keje:P)

36. Saya bersyukur saya bukan seorang yang suka terlibat dalam shopping spree dan 'retail therapy' bukanlah satu therapy yang selalu saya jalani untuk membuat saya gembira.

37. Saya bersyukur kerana jarak hostel dan rumah saya hanyalah 20 minit perjalanan kereta sekiranya saya tidak tersangkut dalam kesesakan trafik. Oleh itu saya boleh balik rumah bila-bila masa sahaja!

38. Saya bersyukur dengan adanya teknologi IM (Instant Messaging) sekarang, saya mampu untuk berhubung dengan teman lelaki saya di Indonesia 24/7 tanpa perlu risau akan nilai kredit telefon saya.

39. Saya bersyukur saya mampu untuk menyanyi seorang diri di dalam kereta semasa memandu tanpa rasa segan silu walaupun risk kereta bersebelahan untuk men'accuse' saya gila itu tinggi.

40. Saya bersyukur kerana seorang blogger yang saya 'stalk' telah menyuruh 'Ramai orang' untuk post entry "Senarai Kesyukuran" ini di dalam blog mereka sekiranya 'Ramai orang' mahu. Terima Kasih kerana memberi idea kepada saya. Sekiranya anda mahu membuat senarai seperti ini juga, anda sememangnya dialu-alukan. :)

nota kaki : senarai ini ditulis secara rawak.

The Confidant

2008-11-03T17:00:00.000+08:00

"Why did you choose to be a doctor?"

Since the first day I stepped in Med school, I've been flooded with this type of question. The way people ask me is different,of course, but everytime they brought it up , it NEVER failed to annoy me.

"Why do you want to be a Dr eh?"
"Apesal amik medical? Tak susah ke? Boleh jadi gila tau..."
"Why did you choose medicine in the first place? No life tau.."

To tell you the truth, even me myself don't know the definite answer. I would be lying lah if I say 'I want to help people', or 'because I want to save lives'.

Just now, I did a Personality Test ,

and the result turns out to be..

From Wikipedia:

In theater, the confidant (feminine: confidante, same pronunciation) character is usually someone the lead character confides in and trusts. Typically, these consist of the best friend, relative, doctor or boss. The confidant character is most common in romantic comedy film but often appear in other genres.

THE CONFIDANT, lets ignore the visionary part shall we :P

And the excerpt from Wikipedia explains it all. Now I have a clear idea of how to the answer the earlier question. YAY!

But the thing that caught me the most from the result is I'm 68% judgmental. Pretty ironic. I'm not really a big fan of people who judge other people, but for my surprise, I'm one of them. I guess I have to work that out somehow.

Silliness.

2008-11-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

Have you ever feel like you want to just lie down and do nothing?

Have you ever feel like you don't know what to eat, and think that all of the foods available are not worth eaten?

Have you ever felt like you want to kill your neighbor's dog?

Have you ever feel you want to bake a cake to make a living?

Have you ever fall in love?

Have you ever missed someone and you know you can do nothing about it other than let the feeling pass?

Have you ever feel like you have not eaten but actually you have?

Too much question to answer isn't it? Most of it are ridiculous, I know. Its normal to have ridiculous questions running in your mind. It makes you feel sane. Insane is when you say those questions out loud, especially when nobody is around. *sigh*

For now, let me answer those questions one by one. I have nothing to do at the moment, so ignore my silliness.

Have you ever feel like you want to just lie down and do nothing?
Yeah right now, thankfully I'm infront of my laptop or otherwise I'm already asleep.

Have you ever feel like you don't know what to eat, and think that all of the foods available are not worth eaten?
Every single weekday when I'm about to have my lunch in a typical nasi campur stall. Why can grass considered as a type of vegetable? For sure it contains fiber.

Have you ever felt like you want to kill your neighbor's dog?
By all means, yes! especially the one who barks at the middle of the night when I'm sleeping. So what if they saw a ghost or something. Keep quiet already.

Have you ever feel you want to bake a cake to make a living?
Cookies. I love baking cookies. But never as my permanent job la. Maybe as a side income. Haha

Have you ever fall in love?
Is this a trick question (aku yg buat question ni g tanye balik,mmg xde keje)?
Yes I have. :)

Have you ever missed someone and you know you can do nothing about it other than let the feeling pass?
Every single day. :( He is a thousand miles away from me..
Luckily YM connects us everyday. (bukan maxis or celcom ok :P)

Have you ever feel like you have not eaten but actually you have?
This seldom happens to me. My short term memory is not that bad lol.

Enough already. Need. Sleep. Now. Good. Night.

I've become a blogger!

2008-11-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm no longer a blogdriver. I've left Defining Querida for good, and moved on to Redefining Querida. Semoga kerajinan ku mengepos new entry bertambah2 lah. :P

Goodbye sayang. I had a lot of good times with you :) Will definitely miss the header picture. (not going to put it here though, tak masuk theme..hehe)